F*ck Monday #9

This Monday's rant is primarily based on the fact that today is my Grandad's funeral and this is the first funeral that I've ever gone too. Now I know most people aren't big fans of funerals but I tend to look after younger family members or just prefer not too attended. This is also not out of a lack of respect to those who have passed it is just that I feel that personally I'm not great at coping with death or funerals. I struggle to watch them on tele let alone in real life. My Mum's Dad passed two years ago and I didn't attend that funeral and it is sad to say but I have had plenty of oppotunity to go. Though my parents believe that I need to go to a funeral for myself and to realise they aren't nice to go to but they can be nice when an older person dies because it becomes a celebration of their life. So today I am pulling out a full black outfit with minimal make-up (the fear of mascara smudge). Wish me luck... hopefully it won't be as bad as I think it is.